this feeling

this feeling in the bottom of my stomach
every time i get ready to go out is becoming more and more painful
every single time i go out.
i get so jealous of her.
she has everything i want
and then i feel terrible that im jealous because she is a really nice person
and so much prettier than me.
which in turn makes me even more jealous,
its a vicious circle and its driving me insane..
it really sucks when your out clubbing and the only reason a guy will speak to me is to ask if my friend is single or tell me they wanna hook up with my friend.
yeah im having a bit of a whine and if you dont like it dont read it.
my head is just so muddled atm..