this feeling

this feeling in the bottom of my stomach
every time i get ready to go out is becoming more and more painful
every single time i go out.
i get so jealous of her.
she has everything i want
and then i feel terrible that im jealous because she is a really nice person
and so much prettier than me.
which in turn makes me even more jealous,
its a vicious circle and its driving me insane..
it really sucks when your out clubbing and the only reason a guy will speak to me is to ask if my friend is single or tell me they wanna hook up with my friend.
yeah im having a bit of a whine and if you dont like it dont read it.
my head is just so muddled atm..

my life update

im having a great time in victoria
think i will be staying here
im trying to get into something that will let me do my year 10 eqivilant
im also trying to become an alternitive model.
a fresh start seems to be what i needed, i know i say that ever time i leave perth but im hopeing this time is different

broken peices

broken and out of home
always feeling so alone
lost in the dark
she cant find her path
who is to say
she will ever be ok..